Centering

We are just about done with the construction on our home. Things are almost back to normal around here. It is such a relief to get this part of our lives behind us and to move on. This whole process has really taken a toll on my physically and emotionally. I am now working on putting the pieces back together with my family in San Diego. I have prayed for them a lot and forgiven them. I know the enemy was present and on the attack throughout this experience. I have come to understand that the emotional pain that I felt during the time I was dealing with the hurtful words and actions of my family were a result of the enemy getting inside me and attacking my heart.

I am reading this book called "Spritual Warfare" by Timothy Warner. Warner points out that the enemy uses two basis for attacking us. One is sin on our part, but Christ, through the Cross, has provided forgivness and cleansing for all our sin. If we agree with God about our sin and His remedy for it, Satan can no longer hold us in bondage through guilt. The other basis of attack is self. His aim is always to get us to be self-centered instead of God-centered. But self also goes to the Cross with Christ, and God's children do not "love thier lives so much as to shrink from death" (Rev 12:11). So if I have been crucified in Christ, if my self has gone to the Cross and I daily reckon my self dead to the demands of my old nature, then I am victorious. It's all up to me to attain this victory through faith.

It's so hard for me to be God-centered vs. self-centered and this is exactly what the enemy wants. It's all about turning things over to God and keeping Him in the forefront, no matter what is going on in my life. I have my good days and my bad days just like everybody else. When I take the time to sit back and talk to God about anything that has me worried or concerned, it always comes back to one message - He is in control and there is a reason for everything. God does not make mistakes....