Centering

We are just about done with the construction on our home. Things are almost back to normal around here. It is such a relief to get this part of our lives behind us and to move on. This whole process has really taken a toll on my physically and emotionally. I am now working on putting the pieces back together with my family in San Diego. I have prayed for them a lot and forgiven them. I know the enemy was present and on the attack throughout this experience. I have come to understand that the emotional pain that I felt during the time I was dealing with the hurtful words and actions of my family were a result of the enemy getting inside me and attacking my heart.

I am reading this book called "Spritual Warfare" by Timothy Warner. Warner points out that the enemy uses two basis for attacking us. One is sin on our part, but Christ, through the Cross, has provided forgivness and cleansing for all our sin. If we agree with God about our sin and His remedy for it, Satan can no longer hold us in bondage through guilt. The other basis of attack is self. His aim is always to get us to be self-centered instead of God-centered. But self also goes to the Cross with Christ, and God's children do not "love thier lives so much as to shrink from death" (Rev 12:11). So if I have been crucified in Christ, if my self has gone to the Cross and I daily reckon my self dead to the demands of my old nature, then I am victorious. It's all up to me to attain this victory through faith.

It's so hard for me to be God-centered vs. self-centered and this is exactly what the enemy wants. It's all about turning things over to God and keeping Him in the forefront, no matter what is going on in my life. I have my good days and my bad days just like everybody else. When I take the time to sit back and talk to God about anything that has me worried or concerned, it always comes back to one message - He is in control and there is a reason for everything. God does not make mistakes....

World Vision

We took the kids to the AIDS/HIV Experience this past weekend. It was put on by World Vision. There were several different paths you could have taken to experience the story of one individuals life in Africa. You actually walk into the story as part of the experience. Tammy took Bobby and Rebecca down one path and Joey and I went down another. By the third part of the experience, I was holding back the tears. The story was so tragic. It was about this young boy named Emmanuel that lost both of his parents to AIDS/HIV. Emmanuel and his brother were abandoned by their relatives and left to die in the banana groves of the village that they lived in. We experienced the loss, the burial of their mother, and a life of desperation as these two young boys (ages 9 and 3) survived by themselves for 2 years before they were taken in by missionaries from World Vision. Near the end of the experience, you walk into this room filled with pictures of boys and girls that have been orphaned as a result of AIDS/HIV. You are asked to pick a picture and pray for that person. So, Joey and I picked pictures and prayed for these two little boys. Joey (5 years old) was so serious through the whole thing, especially when he was praying for the little boy that he had picked. I was so touched by seeing him pray that a snapped a quick photo with my iPhone. It is so tragic to see what happens to the children of the parents that are lost to HIV/AIDS - It is my prayer that God continue to keep his hand on these children and that they are given hope. I can not imagine how alone they must feel and how hard it must be to go on day after day in an environment that is filled with darkness. As part of our gifts to our children this year, we sponsored one child for each of our children and one child for Tammy and I. Our hope is that our children have a better appreciation for what they have and where they are. We also pray that our kids are humbled by the this experience and will truly embrace the sponsorship of their child. I was certainly humbled by the whole thing and look forward to traveling as part of a missionary team one day. Here is the pic that I took - God Bless him.

Blog Block

I have been experiencing blog block this past week.... Looking to be inspired, but have not found that nugget yet. Things are moving along nicely with the contractors - we are hoping to complete construction by the end of next week if all goes well. It will be nice to have our home back after a very eventful experience. I prayed tonight that God bless this home and my family. I prayed that God be with my family down in San Diego and help them come to know Him. God's grace is truly amazing :)

I love Jesus.

Ikea

My wife and I went to Ikea today to get some stuff to organize the toys in the playroom. I absolutely can not stand this store. If you have ever been to an Ikea, you know that you have to walk all the way through the store to get to the check out area - not a straight shot. There is a path that flows through the store like a maze that literally takes you through ever department. There are arrows on the floor that let you know you are going the right direction and every now and then, you will cross a special section of flooring that says "50,000 people walk across this per week" or something like that. Anyway, all the stuff we were there to get was at the end of the path in the warehouse. Along the way, we stopped and looked a bunch of junk and picked up a few odds and ends that I thought we needed at the house like those little scented candles. We ended up spending about an hour in Ikea and spent a total of about 10 minutes on the stuff we actually went there to buy. Basically it really hard to walk straight through Ikea to what you need and get out - lots of distractions along the way.

This evening my wife and I went out to dinner with our life group (a group of christians that do life together) and got a little worship in on the drive over. One of my favorite tunes was playing - "Jesus Paid it All". I worship daily and never get tired of listening to great songs with great messages. Among many things, this song really reminds me about the grace of Jesus Christ. It reminds me that there is a path paved in love that Jesus paid for. We all know that there is a path in front of us that will end at the entrance to the Kingdom of God. There are however distractions all along the way that the enemy will put in place to cause us to stray off of the path. Walking the path to everlasting life is not a simple straight shot, we have to walk through every department until we get to the end. "Thy word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path" Ps 119:105 NIV. This verse is so important when it comes to navigating the maze. It has been very hard for me personally to get in the habit of reading my Bible everyday - I am getting better, but it is still a bit of a challenge. I will say that everytime I open it I find encouragement, wisdom, guidance, and ANSWERS.... It truly is a light unto my path and when I get distracted, I can always find my way back because that light is always there....

One of my favorites and for sure my favorite version of the song (if you have 5 minutes or so):